Today is my FIRST morning in 2009.

Im welcomed by a huge flu.

Sneeze sneeze sneeze.

Oh man, people must have missed me pretty damn much.

Sweeeeeet.

Was woken up by mum like, 9plus.

Telling me how to shower in the flowery bath.

She had that going every single year.

Yes mummy, i know how to shower myself.

Then, woken up by my sister, 11plus.

She asks, 'Hey wheres your perfume? Im down to negative 1 drop.'

Me..'Awww, those are expensive stuff. Anyway, its in my drawer.'

T.T my perfume.....

Finally woke up at 12plus.

I've showered,

I've had clean and new clothes on,

I've had 2 ulcers on my gum. OUCH.

I've had a huge glass of water.

I've had a funny call from clement.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy new year folks!
Its 2009 already.
Wow, im on earth for 19 years.

Lazy yet fulfilling day.
Woke up at 11plus..
Slacked, watched 'HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER'!
Oh man, i swear to god.
I will watch this drama AGAIN!
Wahooo~
OH YEAH, ITS THAT NICE!
Ok, then went to print out my invitation cards.
And oh god, they turned out to be super cute~
Came home and do all the cutting and blah blah blah.
Finally DONE!
And ITS SO CUTE!!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHA!

Went to my cousin's chalet at Aloha Changi.
My lil girl cousin turned 2 this year.
She is so adorable.
She keep asking me to apply medicine for her, she say mosquitoes bite her.
But her mum says she's just trying to fool everyone.
HAHAHAHA!
And she asked for the guy who played phone with her.
Awww, sweet pie.
My lil boy cousin played violin for us.
He is just 6 years old.
Played happy birthday, jingle bells and his concert pieces.
Talented boy.
Clap clap for you!
And my elder cousin is 3 months pregnant!
Happiness is all around the corner.

I feel happy today.
Finally accomplished majority of the stuff.
Can rest awhile, do my school proj and...watch my drama.
HAHAHA!
Have a great rest everyone!
LOVE 2009~

Vic, as long as you have the peace in your heart to do things and you will know you are happy than thats all you need.

-Sam.

Thanks babe.
Really glad to have ya~
LOVES!!!

Ok, so im stuck watching 'how i met your mother'.
THE WHOLE AFTERNOON!
But its really nice.
GO WATCH IT!
http://www.tudou.com/playlist/playindex.do?lid=3162133&iid=15895725
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Dont say sorry.

I think what is most important is to treasure.

Maybe you wont feel its necessary now if you had all the good stuff.

But wait till you've lost it all.

You will know how much lose is that.

Ask me, im experienced.

Truth is....

Dont linger in the past.

If you hadnt treasured.

Too bad, new game, start afresh.

You still got a chance.

Whether its old or new.

Ex offender or not, people always have a second chance.

Cheer up and look up.

The sky is so blue.

Your mood will turn good.

Things will go smooth.

To my good boy who scored 87/100.

I have things i want to say.

I wish to stay in the past.

To cuddle, to be loved and to love too much.

But no..

Its time to move on isnt it.

I still have you, as my friend now.

I still care for you, like how you cared bout me.

Big or small things, we still have each other's listening ear.

Whether we will have each other in the future, we do not know.

But, lets not bother about the future first.

Live in the 'PRESENT'.

Abandon past and future.

Because there is no forever and there will be no bad memories.

I'd love to see how far we could go in this friendship.

I'd love to see how it turn out.

Because, somehow you still have a piece of my heart.

Thanks sweets.

Hi all, i've been lazy and busy.
Theres an update now.
WHOOHOO~

The minute you become independent thinker,
Two things will happen.
First, positive people and things will be drawn to you like a magnet.
Second, it will serve as a deterrent for negative people who will try to distract you from achieving your goals.
There will always be people who will be there to plant negative seeds in your garden.

-why men loves bitches.

Oh yay, i saw that coming.
Thats why, now i created an opprtunity for myself.
And i always had a great advisor and helper by my side.
I will, by all means succeed.
Thanks~

Too nice? I LOVE THIS.

林峰
爱不疚

收藏在眼眸　常徘徊左右　愛猜到沒有　

愉快玩笑後　能全然退後　你開心就夠

這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
假使講了你聽到後　或會走　

這種戀愛太罕有　不須眞正擁有　

成全　衷心祝福然後　就放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　

放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　
已經　已經足夠
遥远似宇宙　靜靜在背後　去看守就夠　
這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
即使一剎有過衝動　挽你手　
這種戀愛太罕有　不須眞正擁有　

成全　多捨不得仍然　是放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　

放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　

放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　

已經　已經足夠　

放手　我的牽掛　找不到盡頭　

放手　期望你幸福甚麼都有

也許　愛很深厚　

然而我早看得透　

放手　至可擁有

I feel when i hear this song.

Cheers. Xmas tree!

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE.
Party till 6am.
Wine, beer, cocktail, wine, beer, cocktail again.
Read my book till 7am.
Slept at 7:30am.
Woke up at 1:37pm.
Phew~~~~
That was great xmas party!

Thanks all who came,
Thanks all who stayed over till so so so early,
Thanks all who came with gifts.
YAY YAY YAY!

Life is changing.
Life is getting busy.
We're not going to be in our comfort zone forever.
Or rather, there isnt comfort zone at all.
So, have to be independent ya~

And, recently i thought self motivation books are so cool.
I've been hitting the library ever so often.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

And, pet society is fun.
Thanks for the gifts sweeties~

I dont want to make anything sour.
You and i are happy now. At least we had the courage to let go.
Let me not say about bad stuff and future.
Cause we dont know anything, just remain like that.
We are still goooood.

And like i said, i still feel you are a good guy.

Lets just remain like that.

Today, i woke up late.
Went to visit my lil A.
Awww, such sweety.
I carried her and fed her milk.
She's so contented she fell asleep lo~
AWWWW, so cute!
After that, went to do some work with sam and wanni.
PR AND PJMS.
So much. But since im so free.
I took all the ppt work. JIA YOU LO~~~

Reached home, watched Little Nonya.
10pm talked to menses till 12am.
Now im blogging.
Awwww. I need new year clothes.
I wanna buy new year clothes and and i bought my ring already.
Have i said? But its 5 diamond ring. WAHOOOO~
Pretty sweet. I think i will get it next week. YAHOOO~

8 months isnt long.
Im 18 this year.
If i change my partner every year till 30 years old.
I can change 12 partners.
WOW!

But i have come to a state that i can already settle down for a long term relationship.
I think that is what you called maturity.
A point whereby you know you want to settle down, you can settle down for someone you love.
But it doesnt mean that the someone you love can settle down for you.
Im still too young to be in a relationship.
I finally realise that already.
Oh my god, it took me awhile.
Guys i was with were all attention lackers.
8 months isnt long at all.
If it aint 2 years or more, it isnt considered long.
I rather not be with someone who cant commit yet.

But if i really love him, i will wait.

Yay man.
Im happy!
Im happy today.
I went to see BABY~~~

Can feelings be retrieved after a long long time?


I think i hadnt ate a proper meal since 3 days back.
Sam and wanni say i became thinner.
Omggg, is the powder really working?
I was hoping for some 'HOPE'~
I have to make the 'HOPE' myself.

I admit i have low self esteem while yours is damn high.
I had wrote 1 long page of 'compo' scolding you before.
But i didnt post it cause i thought that will really hurt you.
So, that reflected the GOOD GUY in me.
Man, you got me wrong.
HAHAHA!
I didnt want to hurt you cause i love you too much.
I didnt want anymore conflicts to add on.
I didnt want to relationship to have scars.
But now, since no one reads this blog.
I shall post my past.....comments.

Omens of love. There is nowhere to accomodate my presence. Slowly, there will be no me.
Why can you just leave it like that? How did you manage to do it? You mood wont fickle? You wont feel uneasy? My mood is going up and down. And you can just leave it like that.
Other people has got more than one reason to savage their relationship. Have we had none?
It pains me. To see waves and waves of anxiety, fear and sadness overwhelming us. Is it me or you? You asked me why so sad? I cant find the right word to tell you. You gave me a mental hug, I was happy for a moment. You said you cant give me valentine everyday. I happily accepted. Because i know i cant give you valentine everyday too. Have i throw a tantrum at you ever since that breaktime? When have i not bow my head low and said sorry everytime?

The lady feel kinda...Emotionally unstable.HA! The lady did things.The lady did THINGS.Hopefully to make things smooth.Why does she has to give in, give in and give in SOMEMORE?The lady knows the man is an egoistic man.A man who prefer his lady to be tamed.But in a relationship.Seek BALANCE.It is NOT ok for only one party to give in and give in and give in all the time.The party will feel worn out.Feel taken for granted.Feels sad.

From your reply.
I dont see anything really positive about the future of this relationship.
Cause its all about, oh my feelings for you is no more and i deserve someone better.
Aiish, i dont know to be sad or what.
But i definately will become a better person.
Just so you know.

我想大声宣布 对你依依不舍，
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀。。。
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害？
想回到过去。


Can love not hurt?
Hihi, i just started this blog today. You want to hear my real feelings? They can be found here.

Cause i have nowhere to go anymore.
My sheepyking blog is closed. for the moment i hope.

I had an absolutely awful morning.
I burst into tears this morning.
Couldnt control, just couldnt control.
I need to hear from you.
I need to hear everything.
I want to know why.

I hadnt been thoughtful enough.
I feel i failed to make you different.
Faults lies everywhere.
Foundation, we didnt have and i regret it.
Without foundation, we were so unstable.
Certain lose are irrecoverable.
As i write, i couldnt control my tears flowing.
I want yo call you, hear your voice.
I need you baby.

I still love you so much~
Why, because of your selfishness im stuck here crying to death.
I really couldnt bear.
I couldnt bear this relationship.
I couldnt bear the thought of not having you in my life.

Today is the worst day.
To wake up crying,
To know the fact that you dont love me anymore.
To know i am left alone again.
To have menses cramp but im still crying my heart out.
Today is the worst day.
I hate myself.