Can feelings be retrieved after a long long time?


I think i hadnt ate a proper meal since 3 days back.
Sam and wanni say i became thinner.
Omggg, is the powder really working?
I was hoping for some 'HOPE'~
I have to make the 'HOPE' myself.

I admit i have low self esteem while yours is damn high.
I had wrote 1 long page of 'compo' scolding you before.
But i didnt post it cause i thought that will really hurt you.
So, that reflected the GOOD GUY in me.
Man, you got me wrong.
HAHAHA!
I didnt want to hurt you cause i love you too much.
I didnt want anymore conflicts to add on.
I didnt want to relationship to have scars.
But now, since no one reads this blog.
I shall post my past.....comments.

Omens of love. There is nowhere to accomodate my presence. Slowly, there will be no me.
Why can you just leave it like that? How did you manage to do it? You mood wont fickle? You wont feel uneasy? My mood is going up and down. And you can just leave it like that.
Other people has got more than one reason to savage their relationship. Have we had none?
It pains me. To see waves and waves of anxiety, fear and sadness overwhelming us. Is it me or you? You asked me why so sad? I cant find the right word to tell you. You gave me a mental hug, I was happy for a moment. You said you cant give me valentine everyday. I happily accepted. Because i know i cant give you valentine everyday too. Have i throw a tantrum at you ever since that breaktime? When have i not bow my head low and said sorry everytime?

The lady feel kinda...Emotionally unstable.HA! The lady did things.The lady did THINGS.Hopefully to make things smooth.Why does she has to give in, give in and give in SOMEMORE?The lady knows the man is an egoistic man.A man who prefer his lady to be tamed.But in a relationship.Seek BALANCE.It is NOT ok for only one party to give in and give in and give in all the time.The party will feel worn out.Feel taken for granted.Feels sad.

From your reply.
I dont see anything really positive about the future of this relationship.
Cause its all about, oh my feelings for you is no more and i deserve someone better.
Aiish, i dont know to be sad or what.
But i definately will become a better person.
Just so you know.