Can i try a little harder?!

Should i consider myself lucky?!
Although its really very difficult to be compared.
I used to have 360 hours in a month spent.
Now i have to get used to less than 24 hours in a month.
Can you handle the drastic change if you were in my shoe?!

How do you ever handle this kinda situation!?
I would like to ask.
I would really like to learn from you.
Is it the attitude that holds the major influence?
What else can it be?!

Are you physically attached or emotionally attached?

Envious.
I think you are about to go through that sweet thing again.
Though i stepped in earlier than you.
But i think yours will be sweeter.
Im really envious.

Gemini babe, i think i need you again!
Because of my own ever-changing attitude, im confused by my own thinking.
Because you hold the same attitude as me, i need to heed your advice again!

Sammi babe, i think i need you again too!
Same o same, my ever-changing attitude made decision making difficult.
I need your firm assurance.

But all these about are just complaints.
Can i really snap and make no contact anymore?!
Do i even bear?
I dont think so myself.
What the hell am i holding on to!?
Im speaking in riddles.
Im foolish enough.
Thats right.
But, you harvest what you sow.

This is an open ended post.